yes im bummed things arent how i want them, and my baby isnt at my breast.
but im looking at the positives. positivity is huge, and i know positive thinking gets people places :)
today im feeling great because:
first of all, i have supply. this fact is not lost upon me, and i am very pleased to have milk that my daughter can drink. with my son, my supply ran low due to a couple of factors, and i know there are lots of women who have babies at the breast that want so much for supply...and i do not take that for granted.
i pump every 2 - 3 hours depending on day or night. - this guarantees me alone time to reflect, watch something on the laptop, blog, or do homework or research. guaranteed quiet time. how many moms get that?
i can hold my daughter any way i want during a feeding, and i can look into her eyes without craning my neck to see her :)
expressing breastmilk means that i can easily slip my son some breastmilk in his cup when im preparing baby girls bottle, and he gets some of the goods too without a problem!
if i were only feeding at breast, i might not have the overflowing "we need to get a deep freezer" supply in the freezer that i do have right now for a rainy day :)
i get to have frequent trips to the lactation consultant...seeing as how i want to be one...its nice to be immersed in the culture i want to work in.
Tongue ties are a pain, and having multiple babies with it is rough! but ill have experience with it to help other struggling mothers when my education is over and i am working in the field of breastfeeding.
i have really nice breasts right now :) and after a pumping i get to spend a few extra minutes letting them airdry with my cream and chillin topless.
skin to skin doesnt have ulterior motives. my baby is loving my skin time...not just searchin for a boob. :)
and im feeling great because even though it looks bleak right now...there is still hope. and as long as i do NOT give up...there will be hope.
and more than anything...im thankful she is HEALTHY and well. even if i had no breastmilk - that fact alone would get me through.
just my thoughts for the day.
